I WANNA EAT SO MUCH. NOBODY CAN RECOGNISE ME.


Stop me?
Somebody?
Please?

I miss my hair and my *woosh woosh* mega fan like lashes.

Well anyw, days have been pretty the same yet different. Different in a way that is still the same. I miss you.
I dont feel like going out recently but if I do, I dread going home so badly. I dont want to be reminded that she's no longer around because in my heart, she's still around. Like the movie Hallow Man but she's Hallow Woman with no pulse.
I have a bed I no longer sleep on. Im just too afraid to sleep alone now, too afraid. So Im sleeping with my bimbo maid. Squeezing with her on a single sized bed. Its my 6th day not touching my own bed already. I dread closing my eyes at night because I dont wanna see that man again. I dread staying alone at home because that emptiness in that house scares me.

Its really stupid to know that Im afraid of my own house. Its pathetic.

I saw 'things' I shouldnt have. I kept crying and asking 'him' to go away and all I know is I just wanted to sleep so badly.
and that night, I slept for 20+ hours not getting up for more than 5 mins.

Each and everytime I think about her, I heave a sigh so heavily, deeply and loudly.
Thinking about what I could do better to make you at least happier before you left. But each time, it brings tears to my eyes.
Its just too sudden.

Im not over it.

/Got our backs against the ocean. Its just us against the world.

Goodbye. I love you so much,

This is how manly I am now.



/I cant find my way to you and I cant bare to face the truth.
 

You dont have to pull me back into reality when I tell you how far I want to go.  Cause the least you can do is to support mentally. Even giving me a pat on the back or a two thumbs up for how I am planning for my future is good enough to let me endure hell.

Cant you?

Tsk.

Had to wear this ugly uniform yesterday because of the stupid opening ceremony of FOX. I hate my job so much.

Someone, save me?

 
That is what my boss get for asking me to not put eyeliner. He gets an ahlian.




 

 

I want salonpas. I want salonpas. I want salonpas. I want salonpas.
My legs are so sore.

Oh anyw, Im working at FOX salon at Orchard Central. My hands are tight and itchy after washing just afew of ALOT of heads and I dont like that feeling. Its rather painful. Ultimate die. My boss told me to really not draw my eyeliner anym. HOW? Please tell me how.

/Dear Agony.
Just let go of me.

Thank you, Miss Annonymous for a wallet that looks somewhat likethis.

Bye old Prada.

/Because such surreal emptiness is beyond comprehension.

Sometimes.. Goodbye is the only way.


:'(
 

Wish i had your strength, i wish i knew the truth
So hard to accept this is for real
If you only knew, the guilt i live with now
What if i made the wrong choice?

I'd walk through fire to hear your voice again.
You're the one I'll never leave behind and I give you my word.


/I got 4bucks as tips from clients because I washed their heads and because they're so fussy. TSK.
4 BUCKS ONLY.

 
180909

Headed over to Neverland at night and got almost wasted. Heehee.
I dont recall doing anything and Ive got blueblacks and it hurts so much.
Wtf.

HUNGOVER.
Checked to a hotel and slept for a short little while and have t cab home, bathe, make up and go to work. Thank God I brought plastic bags along because I vomitted so much, someone can just literally drown in it. I wanted to puke so badly in the train but it was so crowded and Im scared that if I puke on that someone, that someone's gna punch me. So I tried t suppress the vomit and I was just one stop away from Somerset and I know the vomit is gna make its way out and I did. BUT I swallowed the vomit and i vomitted again and swallowed and vomitted and swallowed for more than 10times in half a minute. OMG. Fucking gross. I swear I hate drinking, club/ pub. I never drink nor do I club. TSK!

 
My act innocent face.

 














 
 

/Because I gave you the pen of my life, write an ever so sweet song.

Its prolly the third day of holiday :'(
How to enjoy when the Jesus Lover still dont wanna text me? :'(


/A word's just a word, till you mean what you say.
I dont wanna have to pay for it.
You.